5 Signs Christ is Your Life

Christ Centered

2 Corinthians 5:17 tells us “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.”

Colossians 3:1-3 goes further; “Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.

Who wants to appear in glory?  I know I do and as many with me as possible! BUT, in order for that to happen Christ must be my life.

Sometimes (too often regretfully) I find my old self and its worldly attitudes resurrecting.  What often causes this to happen?  Often enough I can stop doing the “good I out to do” (James 4:17), like relying on God through my daily quiet times, or I resist denying my emotions, or I allow ungodly relationships to influence me.

If that is happening to you, here ‘s  a short list of five areas to refocus back on, to let Christ regain being the center of your life.

1. You strive daily to please God in ALL you do

Luke 9:23-26

Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will save it.  What good is it for someone to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit their very self?  Whoever is ashamed of me and my words, the Son of Man will be ashamed of them when he comes in his glory and in the glory of the Father and of the holy angels.

When we cling to self then we cannot grow into what God would have us to become. When we are willing to give up ourselves and allow God to mold us, then we will begin to know true life

– daily denial of self (picking up our cross), overcoming your emotions, doing what’s right in spite of how you feel

  • do you get ADVICE about your life in order to please God?
  • how you spend your time, vacations, missing meetings of the body, your money, what we wear, dating….even going on a mission team

James 4:13-15

Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.  Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.”

  • James reminds us we are but a mist, our lives are fleeting…our highest importance in all we do is to do it for the glory of God (1 Cor 10:31)

2. Your Relationships are in the Kingdom

Mark 3:31-34 “Then Jesus’ mother and brothers arrived. Standing outside, they sent someone in to call him.32 A crowd was sitting around him, and they told him, “Your mother and brothers are outside looking for you.” “Who are my mother and my brothers?” he asked. Then he looked at those seated in a circle around him and said, “Here are my mother and my brothers! Whoever does God’s will is my brother and sister and mother.”

  • do you have that heart, do you have BFFs in the kingdom?  Are you building strong relationships?  Are you making an effort to get to know disciples…going on dates, spending time with one another etc…..reality is we need to have stronger ties in the kingdom than our physical families

3. You 100% depend on God – QTs

It is easier to trust God for our eternity than to trust Him daily. As long as we pursue our own desires, and approach life with our own agendas, then our confidence will be misplaced.

In John 5:30, Jesus says profoundly that, “By myself I can do nothing”!

This is remarkable. Jesus was able to accomplish as much as He did because He was leaning on God’s strength and wisdom. If Jesus was this dependent on God, what should that say about our relationship with the Father? Since we are not as strong or as wise as Jesus, we must become more dependent on God to provide everything we need!

In Romans 12:1-2, the Bible tells how we can overcome our dependence on worldly wisdom and know the will of God.

“Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.”

  • we need to transform our minds…..shelf challenge….has old attitudes and worldly mindset come back down the shelf?
  • self reliance…burned out….can’t do it without God’s power
  • Luke 11;1-4, Jesus teaches his disciples to pray…..”give us this day our daily bread”…daily dependence to be our provider
  • Prayer is humiliy – submission to God

4. You’re a Fisher of People

In Matthew 4:19, Jesus calls his men to follow him in order to be trained into the one thing that will change the world.  A fisher of people….. “Come, follow me,” Jesus said, “and I will send you out to fish for people.”

God’s plan to save the world wasn’t to use social media, or a great advertising campaign, or to drop a million bibles down into everyones lap….NO 🙂 God uses people to spread His message.

Jesus came for one person alone.  To seek and save the lost (Luke 9:10).  Is that your one purpose?

5. You recognise the importance of the Body of Christ

1 Cor 12:12-20,27

Just as a body, though one, has many parts, but all its many parts form one body, so it is with Christ. For we were all baptized by one Spirit so as to form one body—whether Jews or Gentiles, slave or free—and we were all given the one Spirit to drink. Even so the body is not made up of one part but of many. Now if the foot should say, “Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body,” it would not for that reason stop being part of the body.  And if the ear should say, “Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body,” it would not for that reason stop being part of the body.  If the whole body were an eye, where would the sense of hearing be? If the whole body were an ear, where would the sense of smell be?  But in fact God has placed the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be.  If they were all one part, where would the body be?  As it is, there are many parts, but one body.  Now you are the body of Christ, and each one of you is a part of it.

It is all about Christ, but we are baptised into the CHURCH (BODY), whether you like the people in it or not 🙂  Christ is our life, therefore His church is our life ….some grumble that Church wants too much of our life, but remember we DIED!!  When we grumble we are essentially grumbling against God (Exodus 16:2-9).  When we lose our awe or reverence for God’s Bride (the Church), we lose something very precious.  There’s only one place on earth where God has promised to reveal the glory of His great Son, Jesus Christ, and that’s the church.

Ephesians 3:20-21 says: “To him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever” 

God’s plan for evangelizing the world is through the church, God growing you to maturity in Christ, is through the church (discipling), and God’s love is displayed through our relationships in the church (John 13:35). One of the beautiful aspects of our church is the conglomeration of people who have nothing in common but Christ.  We come from all backgrounds, cultures and nations, yet in the Church those boundaries have disappeared. Without the Church Jesus wouldn’t have a body, the church is essentially his arms and legs, an extension of himself, working to save the world.  

Let us strive to MAKE CHRIST OUR LIFE

Romans 8:12-14 (The Message)

So don’t you see that we don’t owe this old do-it-yourself life one red cent. There’s nothing in it for us, nothing at all. The best thing to do is give it a decent burial and get on with your new life. God’s Spirit beckons. There are things to do and places to go!


“Be Mine”


Surely, if God wrote a card this weekend, it would say:


– God

Listen to some of God’s love letters to us…….

“For your Maker is your husband— the Lord Almighty is his name—the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth.”    Isaiah 54:5

“As a young man marries a maiden, so will your sons marry you;  as a bridegroom rejoices over his bride, so will your God rejoice over you.”   Isaiah 62:5

But where did the tradition of Valentine’s Day actually come from?

Surprisingly, according to many sources, Valentine has ties to our early Christian history.  It seems Valentine was a Roman Priest who lived during the reign of Emperor Claudius II (during 3 C BC). The same Claudius, many believe, that is mentioned in Acts 18:2:

“And he (Paul) found a certain Jew named Aquila, a native of Pontus, who had recently arrived from Italy with Priscilla his wife, on account of Claudius commanding all the Jews to leave Rome.”

Claudius not only instigated the Exodus of the Jews living in Rome, but he had an edict that prohibited the marriage of young people. This was based on the idea that unmarried soldiers were more courageous, because married men would tend to avoid death in fear of what might happen to their wives and children.

This law posed serious problems for Christian’s obviously, so legend has it that he secretly married them.  Sadly he was eventually arrested, and in the year 269 AD, Valentine was sentenced to beheading all because of his stand for Christian marriage.

Valentine’s story reminds me of Christ’s example of laying your life down for what you believe. Valentine stood for the protection of a Godly Christian marriage, which is something I am going to speak about tonight.  The best way a Godly wife can protect her marriage is by LOVING her husband.

If you are single, don’t be discouraged because the principles of being a great wife can absolutely be transferred over to being a great wife to Jesus!  For a single sister, this couldn’t be more true…

“Dance with God, He’ll let the right person cut in.”

 1. The Ancient Art of Loving our Husbands!

When I think of how to be a great wife, Titus 2:2-5, comes to mind.

Likewise, teach the older women to be reverent in the way they live, not to be slanderers or addicted to much wine, but to teach what is good. Then they can urge the younger women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled and pure, to be busy at home, to be kind, and to be subject to their husbands, so that no one will malign the word of God.

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A Caring Mother


IMG_0424I love being a mum! I have two children by birth Michael (10) and Mia (3), and I also have a wonderful step daughter Sharayah who is now 23!

Throughout the Bible I am encouraged that God expresses his love for us using sometimes feminine metaphors and analogies .

Isaiah 66
As a mother comforts her child,
so will I comfort you;
and you will be comforted over Jerusalem.”

Psalm 22:9-10
Yet you brought me out of the womb; you made me trust in you, even at my mother’s breast. From birth I was cast on you; from my mother’s womb you have been my God.

Isaiah 42:14
For a long time I have kept silent,I have been quiet and held myself back.
But now, like a woman in childbirth, I cry out, I gasp and pant.

Did you catch that!! God can totally relate to our pain in childbirth!

And finally in Zephaniah 3:17 God paints the wonderful picture of Him singing lullabies!
“The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.”

1. Know You’re Loved

‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭49:15-16‬ ‭
Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me.

In English, we use the word LOVE to describe both our fondness of ice-cream and the love we have for our spouse or our children! The richness of the Hebrew language however, describes many variations of this over used word, LOVE. For example, one Hebrew word for “love” is Rakham which means, “womb, tender love, compassion, pity, and mercy”.

“Rakham” basically means “Womb love!”. And Isaiah 49, describes this maternal love in a most beautiful way. God is describing the love of a mother for her unborn baby or newborn who has no ability to respond back in love other than to show dependence upon the mother for affection and food. Her love is unconditional. That baby is a part of her…..

This concept Womb-love is the heart of God…..you and I are a part of Him, tattooed on the palm of my hands!

I truly believe in order for us to be caring mothers…we need to get back to deeply accepting the love of God…Focusing on his deep love for us needs to be our foundation.

We love because he first loved us.” (1 John 4:19)
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Sufficient Grace – Sunday Communion Message


2 Corinthians 12:7-10
Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Next month, It will be 14 years since I was baptised. I have never been faithful to anything or anyone for that long, and it’s truly God’s amazing grace that has kept me going.

I can relate to Paul in 2 Cor 12, as he begged God to take the thorn away. Because I naturally hate any sort of pain. In fact, prior to becoming a disciple I made it my ambition to avoid any pain at all!

Growing up in a very white Australia during the 70s, i tried to blend in even though I felt very different being half Vietnamese and British… In school I avoided the pain of failure by giving up before I failed in sports or academics, In relationships I avoided rejection by never fully giving my heart again after my first boyfriend broke up with me,..and I avoided feeling the pain of a broken heart by turning to alcohol and drugs to numb the despair of growing up in an abusive family.

Sadly drinking and using drugs like marijuana became a 15 year habit that helped numb the painful feelings of loneliness, shame, sadness, disappointment, insecurity, uncertainty, and fear that plagued me.

By the time I studied the word of God I was 30 years old, but emotionally I was still a child without true character. I thank God that the Bible is truly living and active….and God exposed the condition of my heart.

As I studied the Bible the cravings for impurity and drugs and alcohol ceased and I started to gain understanding. I saw myself in stark reality for the first time and even though it was ugly and very painful, the CROSS offered the HOPE of a new life. It didn’t offer a painless life, in fact to my dismay Jesus’ life exemplifies pain and an amazing courage to face pain in the face! To me this is the call of the Cross. To obey God, to trust God’s goodness in light of pain, suffering and death. For this is what brings glory to a God.

Certainly over the years I’ve become more comfortable with pain due in large to the lessons learned though a very long and painful labour with my first child Michael. God showed me how to deal with pain through an incredible midwife who took the time to coach me through the fear of giving birth. She was concerned that after many hours of pushing my son wasn’t leaving his comfy home. She said I didn’t have a choice to not go through with having this baby and I needed to visualise pain as a doorway. I couldn’t not go through it but had to decide to brace myself, face my deepest fears (of the unknown) and go through the other side. Thanks to her I made it to the other side and had a beautiful gift of a healthy 9lb baby boy. Surely His Word speaks of a mother’s heart – “It will be like a woman suffering the pains of labor. When her child is born, her anguish gives way to joy because she has brought a new baby into the world.” John 16:21 (NLT)

Praise God, on the other side of that suffering was the joy of “a new baby into the world”.

I know down deep that no matter what happens God is true and faithful to his word. His GRACE is sufficient, ENOUGH, and that in those painful and weak moments I can trust that God will never leave me, and his love and GRACE will make me strong enough to endure it.

Isaiah 43:2

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you.

Romans 5:3-5

More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.

Save the Date, Saturday March 15th

Super excited to announce this year’s annual Women’s Day event, entitled “Alluring”. It’s based on the scripture in Hosea 2:14

Therefore, behold, I will allure her, and bring her into the wilderness, and speak tenderly to her heart”.

Here are some pictures from last year to whet the appetite. Will write more about the program and the speakers when I get back from Spain next week.





“The Courage to Be Vulnerable…”


Last week, I spoke to the amazing women in the Church about a book I have been reading entitled: “Daring Greatly: How the courage to be vulnerable transforms the way we live, love, parent and lead” by Brene Brown.

Brene has a PHD is Social Work and also is a shame and empathy researcher who became an overnight sensation after sharing this at a LED speech in 2012.

Her book is not based on Scripture, but God has given her great wisdom on this topic, and some of her principles certainly can be backed up by His Truth. Nearing 14 million views and counting, her talk on the power of vulnerability obviously hit a nerve in all of us, and screams our modern society is longing to connect with one another in a deep and meaningful level.

As Ms Brown studied the truly free (the vulnerable), she saw a correlation between vulnerability and a concept she refers to as “Wholehearted Living”. It reminded me immediately of John 10:10, and the promise that a life in Jesus leads to a FULL meaningful LIFE. If we define vulnerability as : exposed to the possibility of being attacked or harmed, either physically or emotionally (Oxford Dictionary) then Jesus personified vulnerability.

1 Peter 2:23 When they hurled their insults at him, he did not retaliate; when he suffered, he made no threats. Instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly.

Certainly this is the life to which we have been called (1 Peter 2:21). Living in complete vulnerability and trust takes courage but we “Must Dare Greatly”.

So, here are her ten “guideposts” that point to what the “Wholehearted” work to cultivate and what they work to let go of. I have added my own scriptural references.

1. Cultivating Authenticity: Letting Go of What People Think
Isaiah 2:22 ESV
“Stop regarding man in whose nostrils is breath, for of what account is he?”

Galatians 1:10 ESV
“For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.”

2. Cultivating Self-Compassion: Letting Go of Perfectionism
Colossians 2:20-23
“Since you died with Christ to the basic principles of this world, why, as though you still belonged to it, do you submit to its rules: `Do not handle! Do not taste! Do not touch!’? These are all destined to perish with use, because they are based on human commands and teachings. Such regulations indeed have an appearance of wisdom, with their self-imposed worship, their false humility and their harsh treatment of the body, but they lack any value in restraining sensual indulgence.”

Psalm 18:32
“It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect.”

3. Cultivating a Resilient Spirit: Letting Go of Numbing and Powerlessness
Ephesians 4:18-24
“So I tell you this, and insist on it in the Lord, that you must no longer live as the Gentiles do, in the futility of their thinking. They are darkened in their understanding and separated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them due to the hardening of their hearts. Having lost all sensitivity, they have given themselves over to sensuality so as to indulge in every kind of impurity, and they are full of greed. That, however, is not the way of life you learned when you heard about Christ and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.

4. Cultivating Gratitude and Joy: Letting Go of Scarcity and Fear of the Dark
Philippians 4:11-13
“I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength.”

5. Cultivating Intuition and Trusting Faith: Letting Go of the Need for Certainty
A quote from Oswald Chambers (Utmost For His Highest)
“Certainty is the mark of the commonsense life—gracious uncertainty is the mark of the spiritual life. To be certain of God means that we are uncertain in all our ways, not knowing what tomorrow may bring. This is generally expressed with a sigh of sadness, but it should be an expression of breathless expectation. We are uncertain of the next step, but we are certain of God. As soon as we abandon ourselves to God and do the task He has placed closest to us, He begins to fill our lives with surprises. When we become simply a promoter or a defender of a particular belief, something within us dies. That is not believing God—it is only believing our belief about Him. Jesus said, “. . . unless you . . . become as little children . . .” (Matthew 18:3). The spiritual life is the life of a child. We are not uncertain of God, just uncertain of what He is going to do next. If our certainty is only in our beliefs, we develop a sense of self-righteousness, become overly critical, and are limited by the view that our beliefs are complete and settled. But when we have the right relationship with God, life is full of spontaneous, joyful uncertainty and expectancy. Jesus said, “. . . believe also in Me” (John 14:1), not, “Believe certain things about Me”. Leave everything to Him and it will be gloriously and graciously uncertain how He will come in—but you can be certain that He will come. Remain faithful to Him.”

6. Cultivating Creativity: Letting Go of Comparison
Psalm 139:14 ESV
“I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.”

7. Cultivating Play and Rest: Letting Go of Exhaustion as a Status Symbol and Productivity as Self-Worth
Leviticus 23:3
“There are six days when you may work, but the seventh day is a day of sabbath rest, a day of sacred assembly. You are not to do any work; wherever you live, it is a sabbath to the Lord.

8. Cultivating Calm and Stillness: Letting Go of Anxiety as a Lifestyle
Philippians 4:6-7
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

9. Cultivating Meaningful Work: Letting Go of Self-Doubt and “Supposed To”
Journal your PAST. What regrets do you have? Who is your compass? God, or society/parents/peers etc?

10. Cultivating Laughter, Song, and Dance: Letting Go of Being Cool and “Always in Control”
2 Samuel 6:14-16
“Wearing a linen ephod, David was dancing before the Lord with all his might, while he and all Israel were bringing up the ark of the Lord with shouts and the sound of trumpets. As the ark of the Lord was entering the City of David, Michal daughter of Saul watched from a window. And when she saw King David leaping and dancing before the Lord, she despised him in her heart. “

Eyes For 2014



Today, I have a guest writer, my dear friend Dr. Jen Watkins. She’s a woman after God’s dream, and works side by side with me in London. If she lived in the first century her name might be Persis (Romans 16:12) . She is an accomplished woman, with a PHD in Medieval Studies from Cornell University, and years of experience serving our great God. The pictures are of (1) The Galerius arch at Thessoloniki (Roman arch from 3rd century) and (2) A Piazza in Venice. I hope you enjoy it!

​The holiday season has come and gone and everyone’s writing their resolutions. Over the holidays, I was reminded of one of the many odd jobs I’ve done in my life (the list would probably fill up a couple pages!!!) managing a laboratory of tree-ring research at Cornell University. My first year I was one of two girls working as managers and we were both new to the job. Included was a summer trip to Europe, Greece and Turkey to collect samples from forests and archaeological sites. We were warned ahead of time about the conditions – some places would have very primitive bathrooms; we would be changing hotels every couple of days; we would be breakfasting about 7am and be on the go until about 10pm unless it was a rest day; we couldn’t wear open-toed shoes during the day (no matter how hot it was) because we needed to be ready to work in all types of conditions the moment the van stopped.

It was the first trip for both of us. My coworker wound up having more problems than me – she fought with our boss and found our living conditions impossible. For me, there were definitely challenges, but the positives outweighed them – I was getting to travel and see two cities I’d always wanted to visit – Istanbul and Venice – for free. I also got to see Biblical and other archaeological sites. Even being in the forests and outdoors was fun.

​One afternoon we stayed in hotel deep in a pine forest in Turkey. We had finished early for once, and I went on a prayer walk with my CD player. I remember perching on some rocks and watching the road and seeing a horse-drawn cart go by with a family dressed in clothes that looked like they came from last century. I couldn’t imagine their living conditions – they probably lived with bathrooms my coworker and I found challenging. And this Scripture came to me “Your eye is the lamp of your body. When your eyes are healthy, your whole body also is full of light. But when they are unhealthy, your body also is full of darkness.” (Luke 11:34). I wasn’t better or worse than my coworker, and our situations were virtually the same. I just had a different perspective, so as a result, I was having a lot more fun. The family I saw seemed pretty happy as they went by, too, despite their life circumstances.

​I wish I was better in applying this to my own life, but it was an “Aha!” moment that has stayed with me and helps me understand the scripture. Sometimes, my situation may not be all that I want it to be, but my attitude and contentment level is more dependent on my perspective, the eyes with which I see, than what is actually there. I think that’s one of my goals for 2014 – to see with healthy eyes.

Answered Prayer


Last weekend, I spoke (among many other amazing women of God) at the women’s section of the City of Angles Winter Workshop on Prayer. Here is a copy of my notes from that lesson.

The title of my short charge is Answered Prayer.


To be honest, I really don’t know the answer. Prayer is deeply personal and deeply mysterious. I’ve seen God answer the prayers of the unsaved and not answer the prayers of some of the most righteous people I have had the privilege of knowing.

Prayer exposes my faith on the deepest level.

Scriptures like:

James 4:2 says; “You do not have, because you do not ask God”.
Mark 11:24; “Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.”
Matthew 21:22; “If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.”

…seem simple enough, so ,…Why don’t we pray more??

Because prayer makes us vulnerable, it humbles us and it exposes our doubts our unbelief and our fears.

I don’t know about you but I like formulas…I don’t like mystery or ambiguity because I like to be in control…1+2=3……logic is safe! But God doesn’t do formulas very well.

As Mrs Beaver in the Chronicles of Narnia (by C.S. Lewis) says

God isn’t safe…but he is good! He’s the King I tell you!

Following Jesus isn’t safe, let alone praying to Him! He doesn’t tell us the plan but He tells us God can be trusted. He wants us to pray but He doesn’t answer all our prayers with yes and that can do a number on our faith.

In Matthew 6:9-11 Jesus teaches us how to pray. An ancient prayer, yet God allowed me to see it with fresh eyes.

“O Father in heaven, hallowed be your name
your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us today our daily bread.”

God wants Dependence and Surrender. And for a control freak like me that’s terrifying.

Daily dependence. Prayer is a relationship. Jesus did nothing without God.

John 8:28
So Jesus said, “When you have lifted up the Son of Man, then you will know that I am he and that I do nothing ON MY OWN but speak just what the Father has taught me.”

The beginning of God answering prayer, is a posture of complete dependence.

Jesus couldn’t live without prayer it wasn’t just a check in the box on his schedule…it was abiding in the vine…Complete dependence….desperation.

My logical mind loves definitions, so here is what it means to be dependent.

The state of relying on or being controlled by someone or something else. Synonyms include words modern women like me don’t like so much: helplessness, weakness, defencelessness, vulnerability; subservience, and subordination

In Luke 22:42, Jesus says “Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.”

In a moment of agony Jesus prays…and still trusts in Gods love…he doesn’t withdraw or worse take control…but stays vulnerable defenceless, weak, in helpless childlike trust he calls to his Daddy.

Jesus example is profound!

With a posture of dependence we must now release the last bit of control with surrender.

A lot of my prayers are to change other people including trying to change God in an effort to minimise pain or discomfort….yet Jesus teaches us that when we pray we must also pray for the kingdom to come in my heart. When I pray am I truly praying for My will or God’s will be done?

Surrender says may God’s will be done. Sometimes it never occurs to me that maybe God wants me to be more like Jesus instead of a person or situation changing. God in His ultimate goodness knows the big picture. Answered or unanswered prayers shouldn’t alter my view of Him.

Do we consider that maybe God doesn’t answer our prayers to make us happy? But answers prayer to make us holy?

Please pray for me as I will for you to be dependent and surrendered in my prayers so we can be powerful women of prayer for God!

Give Us This Day Our Daily Bread


“She went away and did as Elijah had told her. So there was food every day for Elijah and for the woman and her family. For the jar of flour was not used up and the jug of oil did not run dry, in keeping with the word of the Lord spoken by Elijah.”1 Kings  17:15-16

Today I see true worship of our King as three of my dear friend’s Jeanette, Jen and Denise, arrive at the Holloway Road Car Boot Sale in the wee hours of Saturday morning, with a boot-load of stuff and Jeanette’s 12 week old baby in tow. I see true worship as single mum Karman and her baby Oscar come early to sell the little they have for Missions. I see true worship as my other dear friend Maria arrives early to my house to watch my kids so that I can join the girls at the sale. I see true worship as 12 valiant men and women gather in my home that same morning along with my brave husband to walk the streets of London singing and shaking buckets for Jesus. I see true worship as many others are busy too looking for ways to give so that God can bless our efforts to spread this beautiful, wonderful, glorious gospel to the corners of the earth.
Out of our little, God blessed us today with hundreds of pounds raised.  Our jars are full indeed.
“Those who can venture upon the promise of God, will make no difficulty to expose and empty themselves in his service, by giving him his part first. Surely the increase of this widow’s faith, so as to enable her thus readily to deny herself, and to depend upon the Divine promise, was as great a miracle in the kingdom of grace, as the increase of her meal and oil in the kingdom of providence. Happy are all who can thus, against hope, believe and obey in hope. “
 (Matthew Henry in his commentary of 1 Kings 17)

1 Peter 1:13 “So roll up your sleeves, put your mind in gear, be totally ready to receive the gift that’s coming when Jesus arrives. Don’t lazily slip back into those old grooves of evil, doing just what you feel like doing. You didn’t know any better then; you do now. As obedient children, let yourselves be pulled into a way of life shaped by God’s life.”